vErSe-aTiLiTy

IT'S NOT A COMA
IT'S NOT A SLEEP
IT'S NOT EMOTION THAT I KEEP
I WATCH THIS WORLD WITH PERFECT VISION
NEVER LOSING FOCUS
NEVER LOSING CONTROL
ALWAYS WATING...
WAITING FOR A CHANCE
TO BROADEN MY SEAS
ENGULF THE MADNESS THAT CREATES EACH BREATH
A DESIGNER LIFE
HELD TOGETHER WITH GLUE
DISSOLVES IN WATER...
IN A STORMY SEA

THE SUN BURNS AWAY THE NIGHT
WRAPPED AROUND ME AS I AWAKEN
TO ANOTHER DAY WITH DAMAGED SIGHT

SO I LIE STILL AND THINK
MAYBE THE DAY WON'T SEE ME
SOMEDAY I'LL BE THE MISSING LINK

IF I DON'T SMELL THE SMOKE
HOLD MY BREATH, TRY NOT TO CRY
MAYBE THIS TIME I WON'T CHOKE

ENTICING THOUGH IT MAY BE
THE ROMANCE OF SANITY
WILL NEVER ONCE BE A PART OF ME

OF BADLY BROKEN THOUGHTS
I CREATED A LIFE
IN WHICH I AM NOW CAUGHT

Happy Medium
I hate this happy medium
or I would hate it if I could feel
But I don't anymore
I've forgotten what it is and what it means
It's not a coma
It's not a sleep
It's a death of emotion I keep inside
I watch the world through perfect vision
never losing focus
never getting angry
never crying
I want it to stop
I think...
what do I want?
I can't remember anymore
So I've got a decision
though I've already made it
now I've just got to do it
but what if I lose focus
lose control
lose all this I've gained?
but what have I really gained?
a false peace of mind?
a sense of hapiness overgrown by a sense of nothingness?
So I'll go another day
I'll watch myself through perfect blue
I'll do those things I always do
and I'll stick with my decision of inaction and maybe it'll work
If not I won't care
because I can't anymore

Were my words invisible to you
When I wrote them did they disappear
I know I thought them
Does that make them real
I was wide awake
The whole time you were asleep
I wish I’d have known
Then maybe I wouldn’t be so tired
I feel you in my sleep
I can’t shake your memory
I don’t need a heart more shattered
I’d just begun to glue it back together
I hurt today
My eyes don’t see
My ears don’t hear
My voice is weak