Why aren't you here when I need you
I've thought of a million things to ask you
I always knew you'd walk away from me
I just never thought you'd run out of things to say to me
I don't understand what I did wrong
I guess I just thought we'd learned to get along
I don't comprehend why
I didn't think you were such a bad guy
Maybe I should have listened
taken better notes
I never dreamed this would be
the last things that we wrote
I've just begun to face this
take it for the truth
I turned my back for awhile
and left it all to you
I wrote you a letter
you never answered back
I'm really not a bitch
why can't you see that
How could you just walk away
and leave this in my hands
You took a piece of my heart and soul
and kept it to amuse your friends
Now I'm very alone and I think I like this more
No more unsure comments no more slamming doors
most of the time i'm okay with all of this, then something crosses my mind that only you could get. a sadness overwhelmes me when i realize that you're gone. you stupid piece of shit! how could you treat me like this? i just don't understand it. i've gone over this 1000 times. i think i knew it was all coming in the back of my mind. i just don't turn my back and i can't believe that you would. this is so fucking pathetic! sometimes i think it was a dream. how could you hurt me this bad? i didn't even fucking know you, but what an effect you had. i know i'll be alright, i'm stronger than you'll ever be. you had me for a minute though. i thought you could compete with me. you were a master of illusion. down to the alias and the secretive behavior. i know it was just a game for you, but for me it was more than that. i've learned i'm too reckless with my heart and i need to control that.
Now I've walked away
I don't want to see you smile
I don't want to know a thing
I just want to be me for awhile
I don't care what you are thinking
what's on your mind
I don't want to know a thing
I just want to be me for awhile
I've come to this decision
I'm going to let you be
I can walk away with grace and pride
and you'll never know you hurt me
I'm sure it will be for the best
if I leave and don't look back
I'm tired of the fucking copouts
and the lists of things I lack
So I'll see you down the road
wish you all the best
I hope it all works out for you
maybe life's just a test
Old stuff I found
Yesterday you walked on my dreams like you owned the place
you disregarded me
I looked at you expecting more
you acted like you'd never played this game before
There's nothing I can say to you
nothing I can say
Nothing I can say to you
to change your mind today
Yesterday we changed alot of things
you packed your things and sad goodbye to me
I looked at you expecting more
but only caught a glimpse of you slamming another door
There's nothing I can say to you
nothing I can say
Nothing I can say to you
to keep you here today
Yesterday just seems like a dream
so to see your face was too much for me
I looked at you expecting more
but all I got was less than before
There's nothing I can say to you
nothing I can say
Nothing I can say to you
to hide these feelings today
Yesterday is no longer hard for me
I never see your face
you never bother me
I don't look at you and expect anymore
now I'm the one that's living life once more
There's nothing you can say to me
nothing you can say
Nothing you can say to me
to make me want you today
